But we can't hide in that bubble for ever!! Every once in a while...You are forced to POP OUT your HEAD to follow up on what's going on around you!!
Same as what happened yesterday!
United we Stand...Divided we Fall!
(I will not get into restating the details of this incident, cause that's what the news media are for...) However, I'm writing to share my pain and sorrow as a mother...as a concerned worried MOM who is tired of these sad news!!! Living in FEAR and non-stop stress especially after the warning messages that were circulated weeks ago about possible HIT SPOTS & AREAS!!
Our journey with this NEW STRESS started!
It is so hard for parents to stay home, especially during summer vacation! Locking your little ones inside, but do you dare to take a risk when you have 2 kids?
Shopping Malls and huge PUBLIC gatherings were ticked off our list....we couldn't risk it! Thankfully nothing happened since the time those warnings were spread (I mean in the previously mentioned targeted areas..), but what if?
WHAT IF; the time you decided to visit THIS MALL or go enjoy THIS CONCERT - EVENT - or FESTIVAL something happened! HOW WILL YOU KNOW WHEN or WHERE IS IT SAFE?
Thus, we chose NOT TO question our luck... maybe that's what those PEOPLE want. Force us to live in fear!!
YET with my kid's lives at stake I'd rather live in FEAR than live in SORROW :(
I didn't need to GOOGLE what the AL KAA is or where this remote village is located!! I will now claim that I do know every single village in Lebanon!! BUT.... I do know the main ones, the strategic ones, and above all the ones that concern my family!
I called mum quickly only to hear her distressed sad voice! As children ourselves we can't bear seeing or hearing our parents in such situations! She was mourning the lost of her friends and relatives :(
This is her Village after all, she was raised in it! Her childhood memories, her old friends, and her current relatives and family all living there! I haven't been to Al Kaa in over 15 years, but I have fade memories of this beautiful area! Green open spaces, simple village people all living in harmony! They are so attached to their roots and they are very friendly, giving, and loving! My heart ached, for they don't deserve such a low blow!
After calming my mom down, I spent my entire day watching and listening to the news! It was the same normal headache..when you are not a news follower you will fall in a gap not understanding what the analyst are talking about!!
As sad as I was for the lost souls, I was a bit relieved to know that it ended on that note!
till I saw the 10:30 p.m NEWS!!!
I called my mum right away only to hear her crying hysterically, my heart stopped for a minute! I knew who she was crying for and it took me every ounce of energy I have to hold myself and be as strong for her as possible... I tried so hard to calm her down, to put some sense in her BUT HOW DO YOU CALM A GRIEVING MOTHER?
She have lost contact with her SON and she was freaking out.... I glued to the TV screen praying so hard I will not hear his name... and so we stayed up till 1 a.m calling back and forth till thankfully they confirmed he is fine!!
Going to bed was almost impossible after such a heartbreaking and nervous wrecking night!
Coming days will not be easy, and maybe it is SAFER to take those warnings seriously and avoid certain places :( Meanwhile, ALL WHAT WE CAN DO IS PRAY!!
PRAY FOR LEBANON! PRAY FOR AL-KAA & PRAY FOR ALL!