As a parent, 1 of your ultimate jobs is to ensure they are always safe and well protected. You start your parenthood journey by baby-proofing your house, (along to your parents) your car, and almost everything around them. You avoid all the places that might be risky for them. You constantly explain pros and cons of their own exploration to keep them alert and aware, while you are watching them as a hawk...
Till they take you off guard and hurt themselves right in-front of your eyes!!
And then you will learn something new....something that is not pleasant at all.. Thinking of all the bad possibilities that might effect your children is totally not the same as actually living them!
You learn there's an UGLY part of Parenthood and I'm going to share it with you.
At a first glance we just thought the entire 1 ton table top fell on the floor.... till my little daughter screamed and we realized it actually landed over her PALM!! I don't remember how I leaped over to her side, or pulled the entire glass-top on my own!!! But I did... and as I removed my little girl's hand all through her screams, cry's, and tears, I realized what was so obvious.
What's worse is that the whole thing took 1 sec!
YES in a room full of adults including both her dad and I, non of us was quick enough to prevent what was about to happen!! I can't tell you how many times I've endlessly played that scenario over and over in my head..the WHAT IF!!
Her hand is broken!!
We rushed her to the ER at 11:00 p.m for an x-ray and check-up and unfortunately the Doctors confirmed what we were fearing to hear.. She had not 1 but 3 broken and tilted bones! A surgery was a must ...
At this point I almost fainted...
At 7:00 a.m the anesthesiologist came over for a quick counseling. She informed me since my daughter got a flu with deep coughing, anesthesia might be risky for her life!!!
My heart stopped a beat! We agreed to put her on medication and postpone her operation till after she recovered.
We were discharged back home, with a semi cast on her broken bones, and a list of medicines to give her.
The following 5 days were a pure nightmare, The pain, the screams, the fear and waiting for Friday and her operation day was stressful beyond words..
Thursday night was a re-living experience of our previous Saturday night.. Admitting her to the hospital, putting IV on her other hand (which drover her crazy & was as painful as her broken hand) sleeping in hospital room with kids screaming and crying all around you, and trying so hard to remain strong and positive for the sake of your little one!
I had to pull every strength I had to make it till the morning (as her operation was supposedly to happened 1st ting in the morning..). So you can imagine my feeling when I learned they had to take in an emergency ahead of us and thus we were pushed waiting, praying, and pacing around till 12 noon!!
Then we went down with her to prep her ahead of the operation and that was another nervous breaking hour waiting for our turn, before they dozed her off and at the point I collapsed with tears!
Watching them taking her alone and not knowing if I will see her again was just painful!! A very dreading feeling..
I went back to the room, praying silently for the next 1.5 hour to pass by smoothly!
Thankfully a friend who works at the hospital called me the second her operation was over to break the good news. We didn't wait for the team to call us, we just rushed down quickly and OH the moment they allowed me to see her was just a relief!!
Yes it wasn't a major case especially compared to some that walked by us, but for a parent, seeing your little one in that state, and undergoing an operation with a general Anesthesia is just a super scary experience.
But for now, I am so grateful, so thankful, so happy to have her back.
Now, why I'm sharing all this with you?
Because parenthood is not always about playground, outings, entertaining, and developing your little ones. It's also about hard times that challenges you as a parent. Sleepless night, anxiety, fear and stress from failing as a parent.
It's also a reminder, no matter how careful, how protective, and how alert a parent you are, there will always be a time when something uncontrollable will happen and it will strike you! It will question your parenthood and your skills and even your credibility as a good parent!
However, and no matter what never doubt your self, parenthood is not easy. We are doing the best we can to be as perfect parents for our little ones as possible. We are not super parents and there are things we just can't prevent or avoid.
For now we have a long way to go...1 week recovery at home, followed by another X-ray to monitor her bone growth. During these first 4-6 weeks her bones are still very fragile, thus we have to be extra careful she won't be exposed to another harsh fall or else they will be damaged for ever!!
Then between 6-8 weeks Doctor will remove 2 wires and after 6 month she had to undergo a 2nd operation to remove screws off her bones.
As I said, it is a long & hard recovery process, but as parents we just need to learn and move on.
God Bless your little angels