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I wish I can remember when my day actually started!!! I am a bit lost, because between going late to bed as usual... to taking care off my little one who developed a high fever and I had to calm her all night...to my son joining us while twisting and turning since 2:00 am till he woke up screaming off extreme pain at 4:00 am..to realize his cheek is swollen and between my 1/2 closed eyes and sleepy brain to dressing him and wondering what the hell happened my time kind off stopped!
what made it worse my husband had to take him alone as I couldn't wake up and drag my sick little daughter and between my tormenting moment of leaving him alone and his tears and pleas to go with him....my time stopped again!
Then for the 1st time I felt so useless...I wish I can further elaborate on this sad truth!! But the fact I couldn't be with him and every time I called for updates I could hear him crying and my heart sinking while my time stopped again!
what made it worse my husband had to take him alone as I couldn't wake up and drag my sick little daughter and between my tormenting moment of leaving him alone and his tears and pleas to go with him....my time stopped again!
Then for the 1st time I felt so useless...I wish I can further elaborate on this sad truth!! But the fact I couldn't be with him and every time I called for updates I could hear him crying and my heart sinking while my time stopped again!
I got dressed and ready just in case and started cleaning around the house to stay busy and distracted and around 5:00 am I couldn't take it..I needed reassurance, support, I needed to talk to someone! so I went online but, sadly our online Mum's Group have reached a competing rather than supporting group level.. So I reached out to my old Breastfeeding group, haven't been since I weaned my Little one and I still feel connected!
And waw what a thread of support I received! with every mum's comment I felt at ease and a bit more relaxed... I felt I belong and I am not alone and that feeling is so rewarding to a MOM who felt useless!!
At 7:30 my husband called, they were coming back and so I allowed myself to close my eyes for 10 minutes!! After they got home I felt desperate need to make it up for my son..for not being with him in the ER entire 3 hrs! For not holding his hand, drying his tears, or reassuring him it will all be over soon! That Feeling was just painful!
Then tucked him to bed to sleep and rest while I went around cleaning the house and entertaining my little one so she wont wake up her dad and bro! However by 11:00 am
my son woke up screaming in pain and his cheek was doubled in size!! We rushed him again to the ER after being stuck in the terrible Hamra traffic only to get same answer as 1st visit, seems he is coming down with Mumps!
And waw what a thread of support I received! with every mum's comment I felt at ease and a bit more relaxed... I felt I belong and I am not alone and that feeling is so rewarding to a MOM who felt useless!!
At 7:30 my husband called, they were coming back and so I allowed myself to close my eyes for 10 minutes!! After they got home I felt desperate need to make it up for my son..for not being with him in the ER entire 3 hrs! For not holding his hand, drying his tears, or reassuring him it will all be over soon! That Feeling was just painful!
Then tucked him to bed to sleep and rest while I went around cleaning the house and entertaining my little one so she wont wake up her dad and bro! However by 11:00 am
my son woke up screaming in pain and his cheek was doubled in size!! We rushed him again to the ER after being stuck in the terrible Hamra traffic only to get same answer as 1st visit, seems he is coming down with Mumps!
It kills me to see him like this...making me feel so helpless for not easing his pain much more :(
Finally... we came back home and it was already 3:00 pm! I wish I can say by then we were able to sit and rest, but as parents you know that is impossible!! You know that Mums don't get to rest, and so I continued feeding, pampering, monitoring, entertaining, and keeping my sick kid's company!!And after they both took their medicines and were peacefully tucked in bed, we had to clean & disinfect the house as much and then cook soup at 9:00 pm so meal will be ready the next day!! All this and both my husband and I are sick and down with the flu ourselves :(
and till now I'm still up and worried to go to sleep while he is still in that condition!
and till now I'm still up and worried to go to sleep while he is still in that condition!
despite my chills & fever I managed to cook his favorite and healthy Lentil Soup to keep him warm and powered up!
However, I know I am not alone & I'm not the ONLY ONE!
So today, I stand up and salute YOU all my fellow tired, and yet amazing moms. The mom with no sleep. You the mom who needs to hear the nice encouraging words. You the devoted mom who works nonstop for her family. You the mom with those 2 or 3 kids who never gets a break. You the mom staying up late taking care and looking after your sick kids.
You are not alone if you’re tired. Trust me, you’re really not alone here.
So today, I stand up and salute YOU all my fellow tired, and yet amazing moms. The mom with no sleep. You the mom who needs to hear the nice encouraging words. You the devoted mom who works nonstop for her family. You the mom with those 2 or 3 kids who never gets a break. You the mom staying up late taking care and looking after your sick kids.
You are not alone if you’re tired. Trust me, you’re really not alone here.
Motherhood is a brave and difficult journey!! It is NOT a BATTLE against other MOMS...Motherhood is YOUR JOURNEY with your own CHILDREN!!
Sometimes we all need a reminder of all that we are!! Just a Gentle Reminder from time to time to know WE are not ALONE....and that it is Okay to be a TIRED MOM every now and then :)
CAUSE no matter what at the end of the day we know with every UPS and DOWNS we are learning valuable lessons that are only making us STRONGER!
Sometimes we all need a reminder of all that we are!! Just a Gentle Reminder from time to time to know WE are not ALONE....and that it is Okay to be a TIRED MOM every now and then :)
CAUSE no matter what at the end of the day we know with every UPS and DOWNS we are learning valuable lessons that are only making us STRONGER!
